I am going
to watch everything I say for the seven days mentioned,it may be simply a way
for that part of me that seeks to beat me is willing,but I am going to do it.I
will be Honest with me for seven days.I will also remember to be easy with me,if
that is not oxymoronic.Love,Bob
p.s.we
will see and I will keep an update coming,wish me luck and growth,please,thank
you all for the replies and in-sight.Love some more,Bob.
And
Wonder Woman,I thank you from my Heart for making all this possible,Love
Once,I
was in Love.
Together,we were contemplating marriage.I went to her Mother,to ask for her
blessing.Her Mother said the strangest thing to me.She said"to marry my
daughter would cross your growth".I was quite young and kinda dense,I
reckoned that I was too "white"(she wasn't).
This
happened back in the early 80's.The mother,Oma,owned and operated a shop that
now-a-days would be called a "new age" shop.Oma was sought out by
people for 100's of miles for her knowledge.I did not have a clue what this
meant.
I decided that to get her blessing,I would get to know her,as I was a
manipulative cuss.I would show up at her door and she would say things such as
"come into my parlor,said the spider to the fly".She never let me once
get the better of her.I thought (quite wrongly) that she dis-liked me.She simply
came from a center of Heart,and was impossible to manipulate.
Over this time we became as teacher and student.She was the first to really get
me to look at what Life is Truely about.I owe my Path such as it is to her.
One night in 1980 I dreamt of her.She was standing at the foot of my bed,full of
power and more beautiful than any woman I'd ever seen,simply aglow with life and
Love.At that time,in life,she was in her late 80's,but she appeared to me as a
young woman.She said "Bob,I Love You,I won't be able to answer my door to
you any longer,but I will all-ways be at your call if you need me.The next
morning,I learned she had passed.
As I creid,feeling my Heart break,I felt her knobby hand on my shoulder,and her
voice whispering"worry about what is not what ain't".This advise has
never led me wrong.
Oma,Thank You for your Love and your Help in my Life.
Bob