I'm
wondering to myself when is it okay to talk about another.We don't beat
ourselves when we have something nice to say,that's for sure. Maybe I will
just simply leave Sylvia Brown's name out of it.
I work nights (not much) last night on my favorite radio show, I was treated to
3 hours of her talking at (I will not say "to" because she wasn't even
acknoweledging the interviewer). Every other word was "me " or
"I". There seemed to be no heart involved. This was
shocking to me in particular.
As
I walk a chosen path that moves away from be-ing a "working" psychic
towards a path strewn with Heart like flowers,I realise I have made a right
choice and a choice others might not even consider,with the attraction of fame
for the ego.
Durring the fate-ful interview,things were said such as"if someone tells
you they see auras,tell them to go to the eye doctor because III don't see them
so they don't exist".(exact quote).
Again I'm wondering what base instinct is being served in me that I want/need to
say things about her. It is true she is very famous and success-full,I'm
sure,but when I went to her site to see if I could email her with my
thoughts,and i assure you I would have been nice,there was a huge banner saying
she will not read any emails and the only way to talk with her was to schedule
an appointment. All I wanted to ask her was some questions about her
path,and to tell her 1 thing,which would have been,Sylvia,be-ing psychic isn't
the end all,it's the beginning-all of growth. It's not about telling
others,it's about hearing Heart.
But here I am telling.
Anyone
reading this,please respond with your thoughts,I am at a quandry between how I
feel and what it's ok to say in this confusing world of a partially open Heart
that doesn't know how or even when to zip it.
Love Bob
as
in all things like the above missive, I know what I said says more of me
than of anyone I appeared to be bashing. I truely didn't want to come
across in that way.If anyone reading this would respond,I really am wondering
what this may say about me.Because,when I really get honest,i truely see that
for me,it is all about me,and for you,you. Let's be easy with us.
Love Bob
Dear
Bob,
I guess I will have to admit you are not the first to judge Sylvia for her lack
of tact as I have said some comments about how she reacts to the world, but in
all fairness I guess it is hard to maintain a balance to not judge someone in
the spotlight.
Maybe
that is the problem though as influence hits those that are gifted, they become
more used to defending rather than give.
How many times do you yourself defend what you sense? The fact that her
'confidence' rules her judgment is not necessarily a bad feature though it does
get tiresome at times to try to find the right and just leader to mime.
I am reminded though of the extreme of a personality though that demands that
others adorn you with gifts of income to assure that your success survives
rather than have to work to attain what you wish in life. Sometimes the
ego is the crux of the destruction of the base. When we let our egos loose
to rule us, then we will find that no amount of glory or money will ever stop
the self debasing fears of attainment. If we fail to ask ourselves if 'we
are all that?' , then shame on us, for the meek shall inherit the earth.
In one voice we have to remind the world that yes we have gifts, but by voicing
that fact we are stirring up envy. When we tier ourselves, and think we
are above or below any fellow human being, we are up for grabs of judgment.
Sylvia cannot bother me, because I have seen the faces of solace that she
implants on others that she does help. The bottom line is we should try to
find empathy for the shoes we look at as we will never quite understand all the
scuffs on the surface let alone the scars under that leather. When someone
has to assert and demand the 'me' of them, it just is saying outloud the fears
that reside within. As Shakespear said 'thou protesth too much me thinks.'
In other words if you have to scream at me that in 'my' world, yours is more of
a toil than my struggle, I would step back and say yes it probably is rather
than cause you more self doubt.
Every 'star' has to draw lines of acceptance. It is unfortunate that the
lines have to be given, but such is life.
We all have lines in our lives of what we allow to influence us. Some of
us try as we might to help all unconditionally, but even I draw lines. I
have a lady who is my age, has heart issues, her twin sister is dying of cancer,
and she is going back for a doctorate degree in her spare time. She is
constantly 'falling apart and wishes assurances that she will be okay in life.
If I allowed it she would im me each day to ask for the words each moment that
she will be okay rather than take charge of her life more so and have faith.
She fell in love with a younger man online and when he said that he did not have
time for her, she used that as another excuse to berate herself. She
judges life in this light, if you do not make her important or care about her
constant miseries, then she has no value in life and does not deserve to live.
In other words you are to blame for her misery or joy of feeling better about
herself.
She spends more time online in reading rooms trying to befriend the gifted so
that one of them may see the brightness so she does not have to look so far
within herself to find a reason to turn the lights on. There are not
enough words in the world to make her do what is hers to do.
So, when she follows me to a room and shares her hug, I usually go on and help
who I am helping after I hug her, and then slowly disappear or get involved with
others rather than give her her fair share. We know from giving that we
sometimes get tired of talking to deaf eyes. Perhaps here the message is
for us to just look inside and find those features of others that trip our
trigger and understand why, let alone if we can relate to how it got to that
point. But the warning to us is to never feel that we have outgrown the
stroller either.
I still give this lady messages when she comes in. But they are not long
or detailed anymore. They are simple by just saying I love you too.
I understand the circle and maybe that is all we can say to some.
Sylvia serves a purpose. Those that feel they can make a difference in
life by talking to her and paying the fees, will feel their money well spent.
I have to just remember she is NOT GOD.
That the wisdom that she feels is true to her, is not always the same as mine,
and that is good because the perfect mirror is not out there for any of us.
We are all just a piece of the pie, a speck of dirt that is coheseive forming
the earth. Diversity is the peace, and the miracle.
If any of you have time, please add to my comments and Bob's.
Life is one big huge question mark of thinking and analysis for us all to
explore to become more or less.
Have a great thinking weekend.
Love,
Peggy