It
is not often that an im like that greets me to start my day, but when they come
they do assure me that I am on the right track to doing what is right in life.
I am not afraid to let the sign name be known because it was an aim extension
and I know the person behind it will be as helpful to others as I have tried to
be with them. We truly cannot help others unless we have walked through
their path and found that the bottom line is no matter how we credit others for
our success or demise, the bottom line is someone cared enough to listen until
they were ready to act for themselves.
Right now many of us do not abide, or wait for things to happen. We are
somewhat intolarant to the world not thinking as we do let alone abstain from
actions. We always transfer most personal issues to someone else for our
main reason for being in any state is because it is easier to ignore it rather
than deal with it on many levels.
I have to note that I am truly happy that the POW's are safe and sound. I
hope that more that are missing will be found safe also and that the turmoil in
Iraq is calmed. I don't know how any of us would feel if we were subjected
to the same treatment, nor how we would get on without electricity and things we
rely on constantly.
We had an episode the other night where our electricity went out for over 2 and
a half hours. It was late around 11 p.m. and Gene and I were both tired
but something crashes when your world is not real anymore, and the TV is shut
up, and the night lights are gone. You listen for the drum of activity and
yet only find a soft silence. You keep peering for the repair crew to come
and assure you that it will be on in a bit, but only the scarce car drives up
and down the street. You find out that everything you do relies on your
electricity, telling you the time of day/night, telling you when you are hungry
or tired, telling you when it is the right time to rest or be active. You
revolve around the means of being timed what to do when to do it.
You assure you time and again that it will be on later, and try to go to bed
remembering to shut down that which you had on at the time, the inside and
outside lights. You light the candle you have had forever and watch its
reflections on the walls like it is the TV telling you what is familiar in the
darkness. For the first time in eons, you are forced to abide.
We used to have forced abiding time on Sundays where no business would open, but
the business of reaching to God. We planned our meals around family time
and being with each other to just sit and talk. But as our kids grew
older, and business's became hungrier, the abide time disappeared and we let it
leave because we were to busy to have it around anymore. I think today it
is a good time to stop and just figure out how we can reprogram us to be more
effective in life. Shut our own individual electricity down and see how
many worthwhile things we can do without doing what is a normal pattern to us
all.
It is odd to say or feel this but I think of the many times regrets were formed
in each of us for those things we always wanted to say or do but never allowed
ourselves the time to do them. In the darkness without the hum of all
things around you, you might find your voice again to be thankful for those
things that are simple as the light of the candle.
In the shadow of its light you will find those trinkets that you have cleaned
and surrounded yourselves with that you thought were important, but as you find,
they only reflect light rather than emit it. Without the TV we are
families, and forced to look at its simplest form and then decide what matters.
Iraq must want their light back and balance from this war, and I hope that it
comes to that soon.
I am still not sure that any of us in the same situation would find grace with
any of it, but so be it, it is what it is. We all seek a reason to live
life the best we can.
Abide is not a state of perfection that each of us seeks, for that is most times
un-american. Abide just is what we are taught and coincide with when we
have to. Abide is unconditional acceptance and a measure standard that we
all seek but never find at times. Abide and Patience are two features of
life that we begrudgingly like to ignore lolol.
So, I will hush now.
My son Steve called us the other night. He is such a fine man, he makes me
proud that he is a part of my life. He stated that he read my email on my
views on war, and said it sounded like my father with its reasoning. I
told him that yeah it prolly did, as I am the seed of my father. He said
he disagreed with me and I said that is great, because if either of my children
always went the way of my mind, that would make for one boring universe.
At the end of the conversation we agreed to disagree and told each other we
loved them, and I cried.
When I am happy I cry. When I am proud of my creations, I cry. When
I matter to others, I cry, for all the tears of the earth only add to the
blessings of the day. So, I shut the world down and make the drone silent,
and I smile with peace at not doing much of anything, for that is the way to
abide.
Have a good day all, and know I send you love.
Sincerely,
Peggy